I want to do this more!

I had always wanted a blog, why? I'm not sure.  I am not a very social person and I consider myself an extreme intervert. This is not something I am proud of nor enjoy.  I tend to get anxiety in social situations. The other females in my family are all very social and I envy them.  I constantly tell myself that talking to people should not be this difficult but for me it is.  When I do put myself in social situations, I'm so nervous I flub up words and embarrasses myself.  It's like I can't even talk. Then I spend the rest of the day rethinking my conversations with people and thinking what a fool I made of myself.  The fact that my husband and I chose not to have children only enhances this issue. I am not required to interact with teachers, other parents or get involved in any way.  In a small way, this also adds tension to my marriage as well.  My husband is clearly more social than I am and enjoys going to office parties, reunions and such.  Unless I am going to know everyone there, I don't want to go.  At times,  I feel so isolated.  I am fine entertaining in my home but everywhere else I am so awkward.  The strange part is I don't think anyone close to me even realizes this.  I have the big house, I always entertain and they love it but it's because I'm in my home and I know who I'm inviting.  I'm not sure why I just spilled all this out because I've never told anyone.  I guess because it made me feel better and helps me realize why I wanted a blog.  I  DO want to talk to people and I figure if I can t do it in person I can do it on a blog.  The problem is that I don't know how to get any followers.